I'm not that kinda of girl

For as long as I can remember, I have heard the following words, ''You're such a pretty girl, and if you dressed up and did your hair, you'd probably find a man.'' Total strangers, family, friends, church people have told me this. At first, it used to hurt me terribly--I used to go home and cry about it. As I've gotten older, I've had time to ponder it.

I know there is an inner diva. But I never learned to release her.

She's been trapped so long, that she won't come out.

I'm okay with that. She is too.

I'm the kinda of girl that wears basketball shorts, sneakers, and T-shirts, but wears sexy underwear.

But I'm not the kinda girl who changes to make other people happy.

Maybe no man will ever want to attempt to know me because of the clothes I wear, but at least I will be comfortable.

Why do people always assume they know what's best for you? Aren't I grown? I know they mean well, but you'd think they'd be more careful about it.

But then again, I am a person who can appreciate honest truth, even if it's brutal.

I really don't mean to sound melodramatic, but I feel like this needs to be known.

In other news, phase II of my educational goals, I've gotten a great work-study/internship at the School of Medicine in the Department of Genetics. Since I want to get my Ph.D in Genetics, I think this a really great step.

That's it for now.

Peace and Blessings
BUMBLE!!!

Resurrection day, Resurrected spirit

Today, my pastor preached about the reason for today. God loves us so much that he cannot hate us, because he is in us. He sent Jesus because Adam loved Eve so much that he sacrificed his life for her. We are saved because of agape love: Adam loved Eve without conditions and God loves us the very same way. God loves us so much that he can't hate us! That is a powerful love!

Furthermore, love covers a multitude of sin. Mothers think about how much you love your children. That is almost exactly how much God loves us.

Agape love. How many of can love unconditionally? None. We as a society date WITH conditions. Furthermore, if those conditions aren't continuously satisfied after they've been met, we leave/divorce people. Agape love? We don't know what love is.

Pastor also spoke about the power we have in that Agape love. God sent his only begotten son to save us. Can you imagine creating human life, knowing that that creation will hurt you? Would you still create it? You wouldn't. The power in the love God has for us enables us to have power. You aren't merely human, you are a child of God! He gave us his power! And when Adam gave that power away Jesus had to go and take that power back from the depths of hell! And he had to be human to go to hell! He had to give his life so that he could save us. He had to inherit ALL sin while on the cross, nailed at the hands and feet, suffocating to death. Furthermore, death couldn't just take him because he created it--which means that he had to submit to his own creation in order to give us the chance to be saved!


Imagine that kind of love. And yet he still gave us the ability to CHOOSE to worship him.

We were created to serve God and to magnify him, and to partake in agape love with him.

That's powerful.

I have a renewed spirit--never before had I thought about Jesus' love that way. Everyone is capable of that kind of love. But will you?

My twitter name changed 3 weeks ago to Soulfli.


That's it. Happy RESURRECTION Day!

Peace and blessings,
Bumble