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Hello all,
I hope that this post finds you in good health and happiness. If not, I have a joke (there's not much I can do for poor health, I am not a doctor yet)

An old prospector……

An old prospector shuffled into town leading an old tired mule. The old man headed straight for the only saloon in town to clear his parched throat. He walked up to the saloon and tied his old mule to the hitch rail.

As he stood there brushing some of the dust from his face and clothes, a young gunslinger stepped out of the saloon with a gun in one hand and a bottle of whiskey in the other. The young gunslinger looked at the old man and laughed, saying, 'Hey old man, have you ever danced?'

The old man looked up at the gunslinger and said, 'No, I never did dance, -- and just never wanted to.' A crowd had gathered quickly and the gunslinger grinned and said, 'Well, you old fool, you're gonna' dance now,' and started shooting at the old man's feet.

The old prospector in order to not get a toe blown off or his boots perforated was soon hopping around like a flea on a hot skillet and everybody was laughing fit to be tied. When the last bullet had been fired the young gunslinger, still laughing, holstered his gun and turned around to go back into the saloon. The old man turned to his pack mule, pulled out a double barreled shotgun, and cocked both hammers back. The loud, audible double clicks carried clearly through the desert air.

The crowd stopped laughing immediately. The young gunslinger heard the sounds, too, and he turned around very slowly. The quiet was almost deafening.

The crowd watched as the young gunman stared at the old timer and the large gaping holes of those twin barrels. He found it hard to swallow.. The barrels of the shotgun never wavered in the old man's hands.

The old man said, 'Son, did you ever kiss a mule's ass?'

The boy bully swallowed hard and said, 'No. But I've always wanted to.'

There are two lessons for us all here: 1. Don't waste ammunition. 2. Don't mess with old people

So now that you are laughing (hopefully) I will give some updates.

I am currently, doing nothing, enjoying it, and I am pretty upbeat...

However, I really wish I had something really intelligent to talk about in this post...Hmmm...

Today, I drew a blank...

Not really, just reading funny dot com

Okay.

Peace and Blessings
BUMBLE!!!

More Insomnia

So it's one in the morning...no where close to sleepy.

I hurt, but I manage.

I feel like I should be doing more with my life...

I want to be doing more....

But what is there to do?

I want to be able to talk intellectually about everything... a bit impossible--but impossible takes about a week....

More randomness....but I hope it's interesting randomness.

What's on my mind? My goals. I want to be a doctor/medical anthropologist. Realistically, I probably won't. But I have been defying odds all my life. Survival. Being a fast kid despite being fat....Living day to day as a Black in America. Winning the battle against depression.

When I was sixteen, I set five goals for myself to accomplish by the time I was 21
I would:

Own my own house (at least beginning)
Own my own nice Lexus
Be done with college with a perfect 4.0
Have a steady income
and Have a fat Bank Account

I have yet to accomplish these goals....were they impossible?

It's taking longer than a week obviously.

Maybe I set too high standards for myself. I don't want to set attainable goals--I feel like that makes me lazy. I want to always have something to aim towards...

But maybe I am just being melodramatic.

That's all

Peace and Blessings
BUMBLE!!!

Well Life is...

I have been living.

That's about it.

Discovering new music and living life...

MGMT and Madcon are two of the new artists that I have discovered this month.

And I love them.

I have been trying to keep my head above water...and sometimes it's successful.

Sometimes it's not.

I love my bestie, and recently she's discovered a more awesomer friend than me. Kudos.
Slightly jealous, but at least I can admit it. But it would be totally selfish for me to expect her not to make friends. We are more than 300 miles apart. I miss her terribly.

Sometimes, I wish that life could be different. By different I mean better. By better, I mean I wish there weren't down days.

But you live and learn.

I've been trying to get out and be someone spontaneous.

Not successful yet, but I will be.

I see my future as bright, even if sometimes things occur to make it dim--I refuse to be a sad log...

Two songs I need you to download legally are MGMT's Electric Feel and Madcon's Begging.

That's it.

Peace and Blessings
BUMBLE!!!

I HATE Financial Aid Offices

They repeated the same line: You don't have financial aid!

Queenie, aka @blogbabbygabby, you think that Black schools are the only ones that have attitudes in the Financial Aid office--You would be wrong...

What is with the people in that office? Those people are there to help, not catch an attitude with people asking questions...

I wish those people would do something to cheer themselves up....

Peace and Blessings
BUMBLE!!!

Suffering from Insomnia

I can't sleep. I'm slightly haunted by recent events. But I won't go into details for fear that I will launch my bestie into a panic attack.

But I am up and it's 3:20 and I am blogging.

All my life, all I have ever wanted to do was make a difference and be the best at all I do. Recently, I found out that I am human. I will make mistakes. I will fall short of my own expectations. That doesnt' make it hurt any less, it just makes it easier to swallow, I guess.

I want nothing more than to be great. Why doesn't it come with a manual? Greatness should have a formula to follow that isn't as difficult to follow. But if it did, everyone would be great and effectually, no one would be.

Randomness and listening to music at 3:22 am with dry eyes.

New song on. I love it. Mgmt's Electric Feel. I love it. Don't know why.

Just Randomness.

One of my Tweeties @OnasussMaximus asked me about Epicurian Paradox. Interesting Quasi Debate.

That's it.
Peace and Blessings
BUMBLE!!!!

Blog Baby Gabby, It will be OKAY.

Life is filled with ups and downs. But if you feel like something is bugging you out, call me. If I don't answer, leave a message and I will get back to you. God has a plan and purpose and you are a wonderful person. It will be okay.

Love you hun!

Well Life is Hard. But how else is a diamond made?

This weekend was hard. In the midst of swirling emotions and bills, I found out Sunday that my cousin was shot Saturday.

As hard as it was to believe, I managed to understand that life is too precious.

I mean, I get down about a lot of stuff (One of my buddies jokes that I am a Black emo kid.) But what I have learned, in the midst of it all is to trust God.

I mean, I wish that could take the pain away, but it doesn't.

I feel like the bad news person.

But in reality that is my life.


I understand that something valuable has to go through a process. In order for a diamond to be valuable, it has to go through years of pressure and endure masses greater than it, in order to become what it is.

I will see me as the future diamond and life as what surrounds me to form me.

Peace and Blessings
Bumble!!!

RIP Clevon Jerrell Stewart
http://www.news14.com/Default.aspx?ArID=609365
http://www.newsobserver.com/news/story/1531420.html
http://www.wral.com/news/news_briefs/story/5160698/
http://abclocal.go.com/wtvd/story?section=news/local&id=6817440

The Scribe Arises

Magnolias fill the trees--
their soft white petals
add color to the otherwise darkness.
Sporadically, the flowers add flavor;
like nutmeg on a sweet potato pie.
Honeysuckles mix in and add perspective--
the combination of petals and honey make a sweet and soft smell.
Clay dirt surrounds the trees
Adds an earthy tone--
And their combination looks like trees on fire--and in the heat, it is believable.
It all combines to make
Southern Delta Perfume--
Sweet, Soft, and Down to earth.Like Southern Women.

Beatrice Pate

bka Bumble...Bea...


Albums to GET
Chrisette Michele
Maxwell
Peace and Blessings
Bumble....

I know it has been a while...but y'all know I am busy right....

Hey all,

I have completed school for the semester...

So I have free time right?

Of course not. I am Bumble...a busy bee...


Recently, I have been down in the dumps, because I always have more than I can handle. But I also recently learned to take comfort in God, knowing that all will work out for my good. I have been so worried about bills and paying for summer school--being so wrapped up in myself that I couldn't help others.

Today, I found out that I had more financial aid available than previously I was said to have.

Last week,In Sagas of Communication with University Officials...

Financial Aid Office Lady: Thank you for calling the financial aid office how may I help you?
Me: I was calling to see if I have any aid for the summer?
FAOL: Sure, I can help you with that. Can I have your social security number?
Me:###-##-####
FAOL: Hummm, no I don't see where you have any aid.
Me: None?
FAOL: None.
Me: Thank you.
FAOL: *Click*

Today,I called the Opportunity Scholars Program Coordinator---we have history, we go way back until I was a git ( a young kid). She told me to get my mother to apply for the Plus loan. If she is denied, I could get more financial aid.

Today In Sagas of Communication with University Officials... Last week, I didn't have any available aid...

Financial Aid Office Lady: Thank you for calling the financial aid office how may I help you?
Me: I was calling to see if I have any aid for the summer? I was told that if I got denied for the plus loan, that I could get more money.
FAOL: Long pause. Sure, I can help you with that. Can I have your social security number?
Me:###-##-####
FAOL: Hummm,yep. You have some aid eligiblity.
Me: Really, last week I was told I didn't have any.
FAOL: You have aid.
Me: How much?
FAOL: I can't tell you that. Your lender determines that.
Me: Wow. Well thank you.
FAOL: Have a nice day.
Me: You too.


Yep. God works things out.

My bestie says that I am too uptight. I think she was only partially joking. But right now I don't have much room to make mistakes considering that I have made so many.

But she was right. And I love her for telling me the truth.

*shrugs shoulders...*

New music I have discovered....
Gospel:
Tye Tribett Victory and Stand Out
Israel and New Breed Friend of God and Again I Say Rejoice
Clark Sisters Blessed and Highly Favored
Lonnie Hunter and the Voices of Saint Mark Let's Dance *Actually rediscovered*

And whatever I have to do,---Sell a lung, a kidney, or whatever, I will be purchasing that new Maxwell on 7/7/09

Pretty Wings---Freaking Awesome....

check me out on www.twitter.com/soulfli

That's it for now...

Peace and Blessings,
BUMBLE!!!!