Here's short gospel list--this one gets me through the rough days:
Center of My Joy--Richard Smallwood
More Than I Can Bear---and Imagine Me--Kirk Franklin
Random thoughts and music will soon be as peanut butter and jelly without salmonella... I will dance like the sun is shining even when it's raining... I am blessed to have four friends who are wonderful women... Two in Florida, Two in SC. Yup. Random as the stars can be...
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I'm in my home state, NC, for spring break--spending time with my family, going to church (2x)-- eating unbelievably great country food! I am truly happy! The only way I could be happier is if my besties were here!
It's days like today that I am truly free-- I feel truly blessed!
Before I go, I will post a gospel playlist:
My Name Victory--Johnathan Nelson
Your Mercy--Blessed
He's Sweet II--Blessed
Go Tell it Mountain--Mahalia Jackson
I Give You Praise--Richard Smallwood
Peace and Blessings
Bumble
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I've thought about many things. But mostly purpose-- I firmly believe God has given us the capacity to dream and the tools to achieve them. However, how do we know which ones to pursue?
Do we draw straws? Write a list blindfold ourselves and pick one? Pick one out of a hat?
Seriously--how do you know which one is the right one?
Admittedly, I am not a perfect Christian. In fact, I am bold enough to admit the truth: I'm the scum at th bottom of the Christian barrel. I'm toejam in the body of Christ. Hopefully by now you get the point without me using more metaphors. That being said, I don't have a perfect communication line with God, but I do thank him for my brothers Jesus, Grace and Mercy. Without them, there would be no hope for me.
So which one do I pursue? I have prayed about it, but no answer. Is it that I'm not listening?
Or is it the fact that we all pray for selfish reasons?
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Labels: Curtis Mayfield, Jazzyatnastees, Jimi Hendrix, Meshell Ndegeocello, Music, Nina Simone, Outkast, Raheem DeVaughn
Yesterday, an attack completely crippled me. Last night, after an already hectic day of visiting the psychiatrist, visiting the doctor in the student health center, which the psychiatrist recommended because he wanted to ensure that it wasn't anything that was health related, class, and then work, I got home to a stack of mail. I got mail from SCDMV stating that I haven't paid my taxes in Richland county, and I live in Lexington--I even went there last August to pay it, but they said that because I live in a different county, that I wasn't responsible for paying them taxes. Can someone explain why they are sending me notice that if I don't pay them by the seventeenth, that my plates will be suspended? Not to mention the bill that I got from the student health center for $83 for tests--and I am covered by student insurance that my psychiatrist recommended. Posted by bumblebea at 11:13 AM 1 comments
I have suffered from anxiety attacks since the day I got my first college acceptance letter. In the past, they came every blue moon, but now I have as many as four to six a week.
I am a strong, intelligent woman, with many goals that I want to accomplish before I die. Even though I'm Christian, I try to live by Gandi's ideal "Be the change you wish to see in the world." Lately, more like the recent past, I have been failing at the goals I've set for myself--which causes more stress when I make other goals. Everyday I am haunted by the goals that I failed to accomplish. Everyday, I have to remind myself to breathe--the true mark of my generation--x or y, depending on who you talk to.
I try to escape by two of my past times--reading and listening to music, but even that has been nullified--books usually end happily and music is for the moment. Life's itself or life's choices are rarely that simple.
Is that what makes us inevitably human? Self-realization or the capacity for change? Is it really that simple?
Life's questions can be harder to answer than life itself. But honestly what I don't understand is the ease of complexity life has...
Just random thoughts.
I will post these occasionally--please don't be too judgmental about them.
Most of my posts will be about music lists-- hopefully sharing my love for music.
Until next time,
Peace and Blessings
Bumble
Hey,
I am a really cool and laid back person. I love music and I love art, poetry, and science--anything that can get your heart to stop at a moment's notice--I guess you already know what kind of girl I am.
Anyway, I am going to post more later--this is just a starter blog.
Peace and Blessings
Bumble
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